The truth. I was lying to you all before.

Currently. At this very moment. I am extremly unhappy.

I don't like the U. I actually don't think that I can see myself going here next year. I was wrong about thinking that I could handle it's size. I can't. I hate how big it is, there are too many people and too many of the people are people that I don't care to know. I still haven't found my nitch and I don't see myself finding it anytime soon.

I don't like my classes. I think they're stupid and none of them interest me except my Biology class. I don't like the people in my classes because they are all the same and they probably think the same thing about me.

I don't have a crush on anyone and that's the suckiest thing ever. I don't even know enough boys here to have crushes on any of them. It's awful, I don't know what to think about in my spare time anymore.

My family life is shitty. I miss Joe. I miss Rory. I wish they would call me more. I wish I could see them more.

I hate my room. Nothing in it is like me.

I miss my friends. I miss being around people I love and know. I don't know enough people here to be happy with what I have now.

I feel like I'm the same to everyone. I'm the same person as every other person in the school.

I haven't grown at all. I'm the same person I was in highschool. I'm still unmotivated. I haven't changed and that's a really big disappointment for me. I want to be different. I want to change and grow like everyone else has.

I made a bad decision and that was going to the U. I went here to get more choice in my courses but I don't even get to be in any of the classes I wanna be in. Basically the reason I went here doesn't apply to me anymore.

I don't want to drop out because that's such a waste I can't even begin to think about it. But it's even harder for me to think about starting all over again. It's hard for me to think about going through this all over again.

I'm sorry I lied before.