I cleaned out my car today. It was sad saying goodbye to it. I left a bunch of crap in it for them to clean out. Serves them right not telling me straight out. Telling me twenty minutes before it was going to go. Lying to my face.

I've decided to leave for all holidays from here on out. Good luck fighting over me then. Later I plan on leaving to somewhere forever. With little phone service and a mail service that only comes once a week. I'll also put an axe through my computer. Plan You pushed me away so now I'm bowing out forever is officially in effect.

I am going to detain doing the last two pages of my paper to update my blog. Blogging has been really popping up in my life lately, which is kind of odd because I always put this thing on the back burner. I have ideas, I have things that I wanna say, but I dunno they always end up in my actual journal instead of on the screen. What can I say, I'm old fashioned and I like doodling.

I'm going to be honest and say that I wish it was Halloween. I wanna see Sarah. I wanna be dressed and made up. I wanna be all over the place. But instead I'm in my room, writing a paper on how Germans became Nazis, which is rough to focus on when all you want to be doing is Halloweening it up. There is also some crazy girl throwing bottles behind my house. Thoughts?

This weekend I have too much crapola going on. On Saturday night there's the Disney/jeans cutoff party, but there's also the Griak and a party at the Fort. I have to go to the latter two because of recruiting requirements andddd their both on campus so stumbling between the two will require minimal effort regarding transportation on my part.

I have nothing to talk about. Except that I envy my roommate's excitement about Mpls. I wish I was still somewhat enthused by the city.

I don't know how much longer I can last in this city. I think I need to leave soon and in a big way. I think I need to leave and never come back. I think I need to leave everyone and everything behind. I think it's time for me to live. I think it's time for me to love.